**🔼 Up:** [[🆕 Posts|Posts]] --- Hello! I had a really good month of writing, I think. I wrote a fair few idea notes and I'm starting to get into a bit of a groove now! One thing I'm really enjoying about this process is linking and connecting ideas together (which I do using the 'Explore' section at the bottom of a Thread note) after I finish writing on an idea or concept. My brain seems to do this naturally, and some of the insights that come out of that process are both exciting and enlightening. This month, I've also added in an 'Explore' folder which you'll see on the left sidebar. I started to feel like I needed a way to collate and index idea notes, otherwise it's difficult to find anything or get anywhere. This folder is so far holding hub notes on subjects, topics and notable themes that will be prominent in my work and research. Right now, they're a little baron and only serve as entry points to a few notes, but they will evolve over time. The biggest thing I need to keep reminding myself on with this project is that it is entirely iterative, and it's not going to be perfect from the start (or ever, for that matter). The nature of what I am doing here is chaotic, and so that's really helping to relax some of my perfectionistic Parts. On a more personal note, I noticed I had been really critical of myself lately. My Inner Critic seems to completely pressurise me to get so much done—far beyond my capacity—to the point where I then procrastinate and completely freeze out of exhaustion. While this is happening, the critical voices come out even harder, and so the cycle continues. Engaging in this process of writing and sharing on the internet, especially on somewhat sensitive topics (for me anyway) which are intertwined with past emotions, seems to trigger a complete Parts storm in me. One of the ways I've been crushing myself is knowing in the back of my mind I've left the [[Publish/👋 Welcome|👋 Welcome]] page unfinished, because it never feels like a good enough time to find the energy to speak from the heart and put something together that's truly meaningful. I'm hoping to get that done this month. I had some really tough and crushing moments this month, but I'm glad I became aware of this cycle. With that awareness now, I am really trying to be kind to myself and bring more self-compassion into my life and this process. There is just **so** much I want to write about, and it feels like there's not enough time. But, I know the more I can give myself the space I need to rest, contemplate and recharge, the more that will happen. Thank you for being here, and I'll see you next time! Roc. --- **➡️ Next:** [[05. February 2025 — The Source]] **⬅️ Back:** [[03. December 2024 — A New Place To Call Home]] --- **Newsletters Published:** - [Welcome to Achievement Society (The Age of Self-Exploitation)](https://letters.rocguiducci.com/p/welcome-to-achievement-society-the)